I have been thinking about how I have been putting off activities that require deep thought. I used to read at least two books per week, write constantly and draw with my sister. This past year or so I haven't taken the time to nurture those activities and skills. I can feel my creative juices depleting.
So I have come to a conclusion. I am often lost in my thoughts, and am so distracted from work. Social interactions are becoming more of a burden and less of having a great time with caring people. But I figure that this form of exercise will get me back on track and will help me feel not so distant from everyone in real life. Once I've gotten my thoughts organized for myself (or, at least expressed...) perhaps it will make conversation with those around me just a little easier.
At least one reflection per week. That is the goal.
When I have a thought- a prayer, idea, song stuck in my head... anything, really- I will gather up one or two major topics that stuck in my head for that respective week. Then I will write about it, in any format I wish. Maybe a plain old blog entry! A poem! A long winded sentence! Who knows!
Today is Saturday. This is a November thought that I had on a Wednesday. Well, this is cheating. :D
Ahem.
Consideration. I never use this word in real life. When someone is called "considerate," it is not usually taken as either an incredibly amazing compliment or an insult. It is like calling someone "interesting." Neither are exactly the most expressive adjectives you can use to describe a person, and neither really provoke any feelings of being well liked and understood by the people around you. Sometimes they just feel like polite words that can be used to help a conversation along.
I have been called "considerate" in the past, and I am still not sure what it means.
A little ways back a friend lamented to me that a man she has been talking to through an online dating service, and who she just met in person about a month ago, asked her good friend out promptly after hanging out with the two of them at a function a few days after meeting for the first time.
Ouch. I would say that there is clearly a lack of consideration on his part.
That he needed to consider the fact that, upon the second time meeting this girl, that asking her best friend out on a date is probably not the best way to keep good feelings going.
But... maybe my friend should consider the fact that she was too shy to talk to him the first time she saw him, and so she didn't utter a word to him the entire evening? Maybe he thinks that she doesn't like him at all?
But... maybe this man should consider that he is just as responsible to approach her the first time as she is. Especially since he was the one that suggested attending a function that she was already planning to go to beforehand.
Consideration. It gets complicated.
- the act of considering; careful thought; meditation; deliberation: I will give your project full consideration.
- thoughtful or sympathetic regard or respect; thoughtfulness for others: They showed no consideration for his feelings.
- a thought or reflection; an opinion based upon reflection.a recompense or payment
Consideration can hold you back. An overbearing and relentless sort of consideration seems to have been instilled in me somehow, and it is an annoying pest that I have to corral and control. I want to shape it and make it mine, but it wants to buck and make things complicated.
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